Major Change

[Skelter]

So, history is numbing my skull now. I'm getting a little tired of hearing about which peoples killed this peoples, and how we base this on absolutely nothing.

Really, pre-history is pretty fucking ridiculous.

I've decided, that, despite that history is my strongest card gpa wise, that UIL crap that got me a scholarship ran out 6 months ago, and now I'm paying for my school. So pufwah to that, I'm gonna become a video/graphic design major. It's something I like to do anyhow, and it gives me an excuse to satisfy my technophilia and spend more money on computer shit.

I'm actually excited about school again. Something that I haven't felt...ever?

So, now, I started thinkering with a morbid idea of what I want people to see at my funeral. It kinda freaked me out to think I may die very young. Younger than I could imagine. So in that short span, I at least want to stand for something. I thought it would be cool to work on my photography/video design and create a running picture/video book of my life. I already photograph all these things randomly, and the little cam corder I bought goes everywhere with me, so when I'm cycling or running I see all this stuff that is just quaint at the moment.

I'm also wondering if that it vein, and if I'm going insane for thinking about it.

Here's to saving for a new workstation/camera/("find abandoned on the high seas")software.

[Killerbean]

The death vid sounds cool. I'd say start putting it together now. Aside from being something fun to pass time, if you start making it when you don't have sufficient technology, then the finished product will not only show the evolution of your lifespan until death but the evolution of the technology available to you at the time. So the movie gets more advanced as it progresses. eg. start with stop motion - full motion - CG. lol

Grats on getting interested in school again. I did the same jumping from Computer Science to Digital Music. Sure made the last couple years of school fun.

[53V3N]

Major kudos on grabbing the helm and steering your life towards a more desirable goal. As your life evolves, so will your interests and it's a great lesson to learn when to step back from a decision that your 'past self' made.

I've often thought about making my own video and planning my own funeral. For me, the thought of people (both of them) being all mopey and dreary at the event that should be a celebration of my life, makes me want to... well, die. ;)

My funeral is going to have clowns as ushers, a two-drink minimum and lots of my own special comedic stylings. Anyone caught crying will get their ass beat with a clown shoe and the end of my 'movie' will have a cliffhanger that leaves it wide open for a sequel. Plus, knowing me, it will probably end with something stupid like, "The End?"

[Skelter]

I was thinking that too KB. Like how I already know some of the most beautiful lookouts around my home town and the foot hills around the appalachians, it would be cool to take 12hr segments of rolling footage, and every year or so loop it together with the *fast weather shit* effect, showing the evolution of the earth over a decade or maybe more. The whole idea of being able to document things over long periods of time from my persective is really interesting.

Like, how my world changed, rather than CNN's version of it when I'm 50.

Honestly, getting back into this and HTML is allowing me to channel whatever frustrations I was running into with writing 12 plus essays every semester and 10 plus reading assignment novels.

Plus I made an impulse buy today and bought a new rig since photoshop was starting to dissappoint me and my ex-939 AMD love.