I almost commited suicide!!!

[6canadian9]

My gf been fucking behind my back with like 5 other guys, and i'm so disgusted I can't sleep, eat, do anything, I can't focus, or breathe, can't concentrate on anything other than all the sick shit she done behind my back... I'm like puking my guts out, and I slit my throat to the point where another cm i could have been in critical condition, got 7 stiches... I know all my friends and family are behind me to protect that I don't do again, but she won't even speak to me about what she's done, and been staying over at one of the guys houses... I don't know what to do, I really don't feel like living anymore. I have lost everything that ever mattered to me. :( without her I feel like there's nothing to live for... I don't care if I have 40k worth of equipment, 10k banked or I have my own buisness and do construction work for extra cash $$$. All that shit means nothing to me, I really want her back but she's like broke up with me to fuck him and she won't even face me what do I do?

[YNTD]

My gf been fucking behind my back with like 10 other guys, and i'm so disgusted I can't sleep, eat, do anything, I can't focus, or breathe, can't concentrate on anything other than all the sick shit she done behind my back... I'm like puking my guts out, and I slit my throat to the point where another cm i could have been in critical condition, got 7 stiches... I know all my friends and family are behind me to protect that I don't do again, but she won't even speak to me about what she's done, and been staying over at one of the guys houses... I don't know what to do, I really don't feel like living anymore. I have lost everything that ever mattered to me. :( without her I feel like there's nothing to live for... I don't care if I have 40k worth of equipment, 10k banked or I have my own buisness and do construction work for extra cash $$$. All that shit means nothing to me, I really want her back but she's like broke up with me to fuck him and she won't even face me what do I do?
i think you need to let her go man, i think she used you for your money and when she got what she wanted she left and dident tell you
as for cutting your throat your fucking dumbdont do that shit over a whore, do it over the fact that you crashed daddys jag x9

[6sIc6]

ok now im going to take a pic of my arm for you people who cut there arms and shit.

[ron]

My gf been fucking behind my back with like 10 other guys, and i'm so disgusted I can't sleep, eat, do anything, I can't focus, or breathe, can't concentrate on anything other than all the sick shit she done behind my back...I don't know what to do, I really don't feel like living anymore. I have lost everything that ever mattered to me. :( without her I feel like there's nothing to live for... I don't care if I have 40k worth of equipment, 10k banked or I have my own buisness and do construction work for extra cash $$$. All that shit means nothing to me, I really want her back but she's like broke up with me to fuck him and she won't even face me what do I do?Fuck her, move on. Don't kill yourself over a slutty girl, dipshit. Kill yourself? Yeah, that'll teach her! Get over it, move on.

[get it together]

that's stupid... don't kill yourself over that, let the stupid bitch get to you you have other shit and things will be better for you eventually, just find a new girl

[GooDy420]

Dont ever try to commit sucide becasue of some bitch ass whore. man theres so many other fish in the sea just get ur shit back 2gether and have fun, nothing is worth sucide.
~GooDy

[_Kitana_]

My gf been fucking behind my back with like 10 other guys, and i'm so disgusted I can't sleep, eat, do anything, I can't focus, or breathe, can't concentrate on anything other than all the sick shit she done behind my back... I'm like puking my guts out, and I slit my throat to the point where another cm i could have been in critical condition, got 7 stiches... I know all my friends and family are behind me to protect that I don't do again, but she won't even speak to me about what she's done, and been staying over at one of the guys houses... I don't know what to do, I really don't feel like living anymore. I have lost everything that ever mattered to me. :( without her I feel like there's nothing to live for... I don't care if I have 40k worth of equipment, 10k banked or I have my own buisness and do construction work for extra cash $$$. All that shit means nothing to me, I really want her back but she's like broke up with me to fuck him and she won't even face me what do I do?


I can relate to how you feel. I know what its like to give your heart, love and life away to someone and have them turn around and stab you in the back. I know the feeling of anger, i have sipped that cup of hate to.

Is it worth it? Even if you win her love back, you will never be able to trust her. You will never be able to hold her in the same way. She has shown you so much disrespect that your mind and body will not be able to move pass it. She is not worthy of your life, your love or even your pain.

Obvious you need to look around, you should be thankful that you have friends and family backing you. You have a site of strangers from the look of it backing you as well. Step up and realize that you don't need to live for someone else to be happy. You only need to stay true to yourself... cause in the end, thats all you have to face. You lived once with out her. You can live again. Find faith in yourself, as a person, once you find that you will realize how worthless this chick is.

[WTFNation]

My gf been fucking behind my back with like 10 other guys, and i'm so disgusted I can't sleep, eat, do anything, I can't focus, or breathe, can't concentrate on anything other than all the sick shit she done behind my back... I'm like puking my guts out, and I slit my throat to the point where another cm i could have been in critical condition, got 7 stiches... I know all my friends and family are behind me to protect that I don't do again, but she won't even speak to me about what she's done, and been staying over at one of the guys houses... I don't know what to do, I really don't feel like living anymore. I have lost everything that ever mattered to me. :( without her I feel like there's nothing to live for... I don't care if I have 40k worth of equipment, 10k banked or I have my own buisness and do construction work for extra cash $$$. All that shit means nothing to me, I really want her back but she's like broke up with me to fuck him and she won't even face me what do I do?

Okay. First of all, move the fuck out of Fort St. James. That one-horse town could kill anybody just because they're bored. Move down to the coast to Vancouver, or better yet, the Island and Victoria. These cities are crawling with hot, available women just for you.

Second, stay the fuck away from all pointy objects for awhile. Period.

Third, if you're really in trouble, seek treatment. Don't be retarded. She's not worth dying for, especially by your own hand.

Finally, maybe use that money you've saved to travel a bit, to get your freak on in Australia or someplace. Drunk Aussie chicks love drunk Canadian men!

Fuck 'er, move on dude!

[dew_hopper]

You won't do it, no one who openly expresses shit like that is serious, if u really were going to do it you already would of. Clearly you have to now go ut and slam her best friend and u'll feel better

[Captain 151]

Clearly you have to now go ut and slam her best friend and u'll feel better

Bingo Revenge is the best medicine, always remember that...

[_Kitana_]

You won't do it, no one who openly expresses shit like that is serious, if u really were going to do it you already would of. Clearly you have to now go ut and slam her best friend and u'll feel better

you are seriously a fool. Lots of people who are serious about killing themselfs will tell someone, or even post on the internet where no one knows them..... and he already stated he tried it once.

revenage is not worth it

[angel_of_death]

Don't fucking try to kill yourself over that whore. If she was fucking with you and with 10 other guys behind your back, why go back to her? What's the point? You'll probably never be able to trust her again, anyway.

[6canadian9]

[Grade A Haze]

Ew! I'm sure you made out with the bitch, right? Yuck. You must've had like a million cocks in your mouth. *shivers* But listen dude..You should know better. There's a few ways out of this;

1. Wait for the bitch to get into a gangbang with three other guys and get robbed[It's happened to a girl I know mwhaha]
2. This is the better option. Buy .44 Desert Eagle and well - You can figure the rest out. ;)
3. Laugh when she gets some disease. Or when she gets pregnant and the father bounces on the bitch.
4. Overcome. Do everything in your power to do better than that nasty bitch.

Also, don't try to kill yourself. EVER!

~ Anthony

[6canadian9]

Okay I'm sorry I did a stupid thing and I know it was dumb, and I will recover a cut will heal just like the emotional pain inside, as for the town being size of a hotel in vancouver its true. Hard to find a girl, that's not a slut, has something, or is an inbred hick... as for why I still want to be with her so much is because she was my first and only. I've been with her for 2 1/2 years, and put up with all the lies, excuses, and bullshit that's happened. I'm turning 21. She may have broke my heart 2000+ times but I forgave her, and I still love her. Though she is manic depressive, she doesn't know what she wants, she always up and down, and can never decide if she really loves me or not... Those pills she takes I don't think help any, anyways as you all have said/what 500+ family and friends have said is I should just get over her... but it's so hard to just forget and drop her like a sack of potatos and act like nothing ever happened. The reason I am so close to her is because I do not want to be alone, I like to cuddle, and make love, and be able to squeeze and hold her. I like the feeling of being secure and comfortable. BTW this isn't the first time she's cheated on me: 1st time was when I paid for her trip to Nelson for 3weeks, 2nd time was when I was at work caught her with my 1/2 brother, 3rd time was with an asshole... Anyways I forgave her every time because I love her so much, and i'd do anything for her. Anyways maybe I am just strange like that, anyways you all don't have to worry about me committing suicide anymore, I think I've learned my lesson, and I have a few friends staying with me to make sure I don't do anything irrational. Well thanks all of you. Sincerely RwB

[Grade A Haze]

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[King Goldfish]

My gf been fucking behind my back with like 10 other guys, and i'm so disgusted I can't sleep, eat, do anything, I can't focus, or breathe, can't concentrate on anything other than all the sick shit she done behind my back... I'm like puking my guts out, and I slit my throat to the point where another cm i could have been in critical condition, got 7 stiches... I know all my friends and family are behind me to protect that I don't do again, but she won't even speak to me about what she's done, and been staying over at one of the guys houses... I don't know what to do, I really don't feel like living anymore. I have lost everything that ever mattered to me. :( without her I feel like there's nothing to live for... I don't care if I have 40k worth of equipment, 10k banked or I have my own buisness and do construction work for extra cash $$$. All that shit means nothing to me, I really want her back but she's like broke up with me to fuck him and she won't even face me what do I do?


All I can say is this will make you stronger. it will build character too.

you sound like a person with bipolar disorder or depression.

Do you take Zoloft or Zanax or any other kind of drugs for that?

if not I suggest you get on them as soon as possible and go talk to a shrink. it really helps. you can unload and cleanse yourself.


Just remember, You came into this world alone and you will leave it alone. So why the fuck make that trip for some stupid girl? What you should do is use this pain in some constructive way like painting or music. this is how great music and art is made through those who suffered.

Also if you're religous I suggest talking to God. he helps alot.


Just stay away from beer for now.. You sound like a cannon ready to fire.

[6canadian9]

Okay I'll tell you this story, me and my girlfriend have been dating for 2 1/2 yrs. Three (3) weeks ago, she meets some people that are dope heads and drunks, so there always parting up and apparently having fun. Well she seems to have thought it was cool, but then after a week of her continuously running up there and ignoring me and blowing me off, examples: “I want to go see what Jamie’s doing, and hang out …she said that almost everyday for a week”, then I started getting angry and checking up on her, because she seriously wouldn’t even sit down to watch a 30min show like “That 70’s Show”. So I ended up going there daily to see wassup, because she would stay there all day after getting off work and wouldn’t even talk to me. Anyways one day I go there, and catch her in Jamie’s room (she was making out with him) at the time I didn't know, so I was like wtf are you doing in his room, and there like we wouldn't do anything like that behind your back you can trust us, we where just getting some beer out of the closet or some bullshit. Anyways these people I knew sort of since I was 13 yrs old. I'm now turning 21... but anyhow - I'm like okay then, I talked to her and told her I don't trust these assholes, I don't want her hanging around them. Of course she thinks I’m trying to stop her from having fun, but I was only trying to protect her, from breaking my heart again. Well she wasn't listening to me and kept going there day after day, so one day I got really pissed off - walked in there house and grabbed her stuff and told her get the fuck out. (All these guys care about is getting laid/where trying to go is get her pussy)… she is sort of easy to get in bed, because she doesn’t believe people are cruel and evil like that, but heh that's besides the point. I'm her boyfriend and I don't stand for that shit. Anyhow, I take her home and talk to her, she not listening blah blah blah. So Friday night comes up and my dad and her go to the store to get the stuff to make pizza and she said she’d be back, anyways 1hour goes by she never comes back, so next thing I know she’s up at the queer’s house sitting on the couch and I’ve been waiting for her. So I went up there and told her to come home, and she does we talk a bit, but then she says that there going to be eating pizza, so I said fine go eat pizza and come back, so I’m waiting waiting waiting 3 hours goes by…it’s around 10pm. I go up there and ask her: you said you'd be home right after pizza I was waiting for you. She puts on a show how she not leaving there and no she did not say that and all this other bullshit, so I left really fucking upset, then she comes home late that night around 12pm I think. Okay so I told her why are you doing this to me, and she can't give me a straight answer just "I'm Having Fun"... Anyways so now it's Saturday rolls by she wakes up and immediately runs up there to hang out with these fuckers. Anyways I have talked to them a few times when she was gone asking wtf they think there doing, they where talking about how there going to import some girls and get some pussy and w/e. (At the time I sort of trusted them with her because nothing seemed to be happening) Anyways then I got phone calls saying that she's been doing stuff with Jamie... So once again I go to confront her, but she's like nope, I not doing anything blah blah blah... So now it's later that night they come over to my house with her, and we have a joint and drinking moonshine, anyways then after that we took off to the legion, and had a couple more drinks, well I was tired so I went home to sleep and well, it's like around 2am anyways. I wake up at 4am she not home yet, so I go back to sleep and end up waking up at 8am and she’s back sleeping downstairs, and I’m like wtf. where have you been… She doesn’t want to answer… so I go up to Jamie’s and said “where the fuck was she, and why didn't she come home till 6 this morning?” There like she was out having fun blah blah blah. Obviously I could tell something was up, but she doesn't see it coming, anyways so Cory tells me this story while I’m there, about how he had 4 male friends with girlfriends - come over to his apartment when he lived in Toronto, and when he gets high he likes to make out, so he said that “I just started grabbing her ass and her tittles right in front of his friends” And I was like thinking you perverted ugly mutherfucker that made me sick. Anyways he said “they just wanted to beat him up and how he was telling them if you don’t like that, get the fuck out, and how he lost 4 friends that night” I can side with them I almost felt like punching him in the face for them, just hearing that story, I don’t stand for that shit. Anyways so she comes up, and me and Cory go out and start playing with a paintball gun, I’m gone for maybe a good hour, It's now Sunday morning, I get back there and I tell her lets go home, she’s intoxicated and stoned, I could tell she’s been drinking and smoking so I tell her we have to have a talk, it's about lunchtime. So she doesn’t want to leave she’s having fun and whatever. So I just go home and play some games or w/e (I can't exactly remember every detail but this is basically how it played out...) so then it's about 7 o’clock I ask her to come home, she doesn't listen so I said fine w/e do what you want… And left once again now it’s12 o’clock I’m getting worried and so I go there and there lights are off, no response so… I knock on the door for good 10min (LOUDLY) telling them to open up and yelling my HEATHER name to get out. Of course they didn't answer so I took off running downtown cause during the time I played paintball Cory was talking about how he’s going to the zoo tonight and buying everyone drinks, and then they where planning on going to Fort Trailer Park about 30min walk out of town for a party. After I remembered that I took off running to the zoo I ran for a good 13 straight minutes to the zoo... I get there panting, and stressing out. I get there the Bartender says “they went to fort trailer”, (I thought to myself, I remember Cory talking about Jamie having party at his pos trailer tonight) so once again I took off running, 10 min goes by: now I’m exhausted so I slowed the pace to a frustrated, pissed off walk, to point where if I found them I just kick the shit out of all of them for doing this to me. Anyways I finally reach the trailer park about 15min after that and there's like approx 53 trailers there, and well I went to the obvious spots first where music, lights, fires, and/or where people were... No sign of her or them, so then I figured maybe they saw me and toned it down to a silent whisper, and dimmed lights. So then I spent a good 2 hours walking around each trailer listening in to see if I could her my girls voice, because she tends to speak pretty loudly. 2 hours goes by nothing... so by this time I was nauseous and feeling sick, I was thinking about Jamie, and his brother Cory. (There a couple of fucking morons, that graduated at elementary level) Anyways so at this time I’m worried sick, I’m tired, and I started thinking what people told me about Heather is fucking Jamie, or Cory and then the thought of this just started making me puke, I puked 4 times in row right on the road thinking about it. So by this time I’m having a panic attack so I go to side of the road and lie down, I was having problems breathing and I was literally going all crazy in my head.. So 10 min pass I get back up and walk around some more, by this time I’m like I wont find them, so I head back to town, walk till I get to the bridge then I was to tired to walk anymore, I was cold, tired and my legs were numb. So it's somewhere around 2-3am, and well I sat on bridge for another 10min, then got up walked 5min till around the corner and sat again, Indians are having a party yelling around. So I just sat down and listened to them for a couple minutes then I said “fuck this” and kept heading home. Now I’m about 25min from my house, I get to where Petro is and a cop pulls over this car probably routine check up, his lights are flashing and testing the driver for alcohol or w/e… anyways so I just keep walking... I get further up the road and then I just collapse, I'm having anxiety attack, can't move or breathe or anything. So cop drives to me to see wassup, he realizes I’m having a problem… picks me up and puts me in the back and drives me to the hospital, there they just told me to rest and gave me something to relieve the heart rate... After everything is stable they said I could go home, they asked me how far I live, blah blah blah, I said just 2min from there, so I walked home, when I got there it’s like 2:45-3:15am, her shoes still are not here, and she's no where to be seen. So I took off my shoes and went up to bed, and tried to get some rest maybe 30 minutes later… I wake up. I had 4 nightmares in a row all-different. 1. was of me slitting my throat and lying on the ground dieing, in a puddle of blood 2. was her all beaten up in the hospital dieing, and so I was so mad I just pulled the plug, 3. her being fucked by these son's of a bitches, aka Jamie/Cory and 4. something I can't remember... Anyways so I wake up sweating and scared that something’s wrong with Heather... so I get up and run up to Jamie’s Apartment again I knock on the door nothing, anyways so I went back home again, tried to lie down à I couldn't sleep, breathe, think, nothing… I really felt like dieing or something… 4 – 5am rolls by. I get up and go to her parents house, and leave a letter saying: “I've been up all night, I been looking for Heather, I'm worried about her, I can't eat, sleep, relax, or anything. Please call me when you wake up.” It's about 7am I just finished the letter and got up and left. So I head over to Jamie’s once again and nothing so I sit and wait outside the door until I heard something around 9am. Finally they unlocked the door and opened up, I bust through the peoples leaving, and looked at Heather get your shoes on NOW and lets go. I've been worried sick, I’m like screaming and yelling at the 3 guys that live there Jamie, His Brother, & another guy staying with them. I'm like where the fuck was she, and where the fuck did she sleep, there like she was with us and she slept on the couch --- everything's fine rob, nothing happened. I'm like okay whatever. So anyways I try to take her home and get the truth from her, and she doesn't want to come, and I dragged her to the door and told her look we've been together for 2 1/2 years now, how could you just do this too me… I was worried sick, I was crying, upset, angry, and been emotional abused many times before like this, so I am fragile in a way, when it comes to her and doing stuff like this, her response to how she could do this is "I thought it was clear, I don't want to be with you anymore" I almost broke down and died right there, I know she's manic depressive (bi-polar) and shit, but that just like tore my heart out of my ass. So I smacked her, that was the first time I've ever really slapped her, now she's crying because I hurt her, and it was like a reaction I never meant to hurt her, but after that night, I think she deserved it. After what she put me threw, (don't worry not a woman abuser, I’m 100% against them, I was just very upset because I know what these guys where trying to do… break us up so that they could take advantage of her other words to fuck her behind my back, when she’s most vulnerable. Anyways so she runs back to the couch the 3 guys approach me and say “I don't like that”. And I’m like I don’t give a fuck, what you like. I don’t like the shit she's been doing to me, mind your own fucking business. So anyways when I finally do get her to come home, I take her up to the room and try to have conversation with her, she won't even give me 5min, she ends up running downstairs - making and burning a cd... So I say what the fuck have you been doing for the last 2days… we need to talk, she's like I’m not listening to you, turns up the music... and goes upstairs and takes a bath, then she gets dressed and takes her cd out of the tray and says cya later. (I'm like what the fuck: where are you going,) She’s like, there going fishing / I’m going with them... I was like grrrrrrrrrrrr what... don't you get this at all... so I’m like can you please just stay here and talk to me, and I’m like I love you, I can't stand to see this anymore, I've been depressed, worried, and I’m tired... so she's pushing/forcing her way out the door, so I grabbed the knife and held it to my throat and said Heather I'm serious stay we need to talk - I love you. She’s like we have nothing to talk about, and I don’t care… So I'm like do you love me and she says cold heartedly "NO" and I sliced my neck 3 times really

[6canadian9]

really fast, and the 3rd time sliced it right open 3/4 of inch deep 2inchs long. And she runs out the door crying, and taking off to their house. I was disgusted, so I went to bathroom cleaning out the cut with water and toilet paper, bleeding all over the place, and I really didn't think it was that bad... she comes back 2min later and says we have to go to the hospital now. I'm like why I don't care, I don't want to go, just leave me the fuck alone, you don’t care about me, get lost. And I looked at my wound again, I guess it was pretty serious, so I said fine - lets go. I walked up there and then doctor came and asked me a shit load of questions "how I did it" "what happened" "where's my parents" "why I did it" "is that my girlfriend" anyways after he took a look at the cut he knew I knifed myself, and he said she took off. It wasn’t even 3min after being in the hospital room she takes off to his house, making me feel like she really couldn't careless if I was dead, I almost started crying not because the wound hurt it's because of how she treated me. Anyways they fix me up, and said if I leave they'll call the cops to come and get me, I have to wait for my parents to show up, so 30min later my dad shows up, and talks to the doctor and everything to make sure that I don't do it again and w/e... So I go back home and now it was about lunch time, and 3 hours pass by and I phone there house is "heather there" there like no, I'm like where is she, "I don't know", and so I can tell there fucking lying out of there teeth. So I ask my dad to do me a favor and go up there and get her to come here and talk to me. He’s like “okay I will”, to make it not look obvious that I sent him... he waits about 20min, then he goes up there and talks to her and tells her that us 2 need to talk, but she didn't want to, so 20min later he comes back down: saying she'll talk to me only if I call her, (I’m like this is fucking important what you mean if I call her) so I call her and tell her I'm feeling suicidal and I need her to come help comfort me, and straighten things out... sorry I don't want to talk to you, she hangs up… not even 56sec on the phone. So I’m like so fucking sick to my gut, I put holes through the closet door, the computer room door, and beat the shit out of the bed. After that I phoned her parents up, I'm like Heathers staying at this drug dealers house, and she might get hurt, and her mom's response (she sounded like she didn’t give a fuck, I’m like an asshole, and it’s all my fault she’s doing this, like a real stubborn bitch) Anyways so this is how she said it to me “I just talked to Heather a minute ago, she was fine, and having fun”....... so at this point I just want to take a gun to my head no one will fucking help… I’m so frustrated at this point all I’m trying to do is protect her from these fucking assholes I tell her mom "Fine If She Ends Up Dead It's Not My Fault" (her mom by the way, doesn't careless if we are together or not. she has this attitude towards me as w/e buddy… I don't want to know anything about you or what my daughter is doing, you have to take care of yourself... and let her go type thing.) I am so fucking mad cause I love her so much and her mom just disgusted me… so I call over a few friends to help me deal with this emotional bullshit I’ve been going through I just wanted to kill myself at this point. Anyways Greg, Tiffany, Andrew Jon, My Dad is all there to make sure - I don't do anything. They said she's not worth dieing over, but she is to me because she means that much to me. Anyways so it’s about 5 or 6 I still can’t eat, sleep, play games, watch TV, or anything. So I lye on the bed because I can’t breathe and my stomach hurts, and my head keeps thinking about how she been fucking that no good for nothing piece of shit Jamie, and hanging with those people that she hasn't even known for a total of 12 full 24hour days. So by this time… I'm so fucking dead inside, I just wanted someone to get a gun and blow my head away, or kill me with something. Anyways there all here playing with my games and stuff and keeping me company since I’ve been lying in bed since like 5 o’clock… just crying and thinking how she could do this too me after all this time. About 6 -7 o’clock and they try talking to me again I still feel same way they were trying to comfort me and there telling me yes it's true she's fucking Jamie and there going out. So at this point I'm so disgusted, I almost start pukeing my guts out, 8 o’clock comes he takes off for awhile comes back with some food and I’m still lying there. At around 10 I decide to try to get some sleep comes 12 Greg comes in saying everyone left and he gets ready to go to sleep in the other bed and he's like how u feel I'm like not good, I can't rest, and he's like just try to get some rest get over it… I’m like I can’t so he asks what time are you getting up, I’m like probably early he's like "can you wake me up at 9:30 I got to go to work" I’m like sure no problem. Anyways 1 2 I must slept for them 2 hours but I had same nightmares before of her just doing all this shit behind my back and fucking him and I couldn't do anything about it. 3 4 5 I kept waking up then 6 then 6:30, then 6:45, then 7:00, then 7:15 then finally I said fuck this, I got up and walked up there... Now it's around 7:30AM and I'm like at the door I was about to puke when I got there but then I didn't/I checked to see if the door was unlocked and it was... So I walked in and headed straight for the bedroom and guess what (she's sleeping in Jamie's bed,) I'm thinking to myself: this is fucking sick I knew it, I can’t believe she left me for this dope selling, needle dick, good for nothing, straight F ßfaggit muther fucker. So I close the door and lock it. Then crawl into bed with her, I'm like baby how could you do this to me… please talk to me, please, please, I love you so much, how could you do this to me. I'm like cuddling to her, and holding her, and she's not caring one single bit, she still mad at me and I’m like for what. Anyways so I'm trying to get her to talk to me, she doesn't want to. So then I start trying to make out with her, in Jamie’s bed, I knew she fucked him, so I wanted to fuck her in his bed too... To sort of make it even though... she doesn't want to be… then I do get her to a little bit, I'm starting to loosen her up, if it's one thing that's great about the relationship, it's the sex, we do it at least, no joke, at least… [once a day] However I think this is the longest she hasn't been there to make me cum. So I'm pretty horny because I need to cum at least once a day, or I get grumpy. Sort of odd, but anyways that's just me... She takes birth control pills 24/7 365 and every month during that week we can't do it, we either use condemns, do it in the other hole, or get jerked or sucked by her. Well that other hole and lips, and hands are still sacred to me because she's never pleasured any other guy with them … other than me :). So that makes me happy… Anyways I ask her so is it true have you done it with Jamie, are you seeing him, how many times, what else have you done... blah blah blah, she says she made out with him once kissing and grabbing and had sex once with him. I'm like that's okay, I forgive you, I love you, I need you and I miss you so much. Lets just leave here and never come back, anyways she says maybe she'll take a day off work to straighten things out, but then she decides not too now it's like 8am -8:15am… She gets up and starts doing her hair, and cleaning herself up... And I'm like what are you doing, and she's like getting ready for work but I'm like what you just said you where going to take the day off. Anyways I'm like lets just get the fuck out of here, she's like no. I don't want to leave here, just leave my stuff here. I’m like why... She has a bunch of shit there, that she must have gotten when I was in the hospital her clothes, meds, books, ... I'm like wtf your like living here. I trying to get her to take all her stuff but she doesn't want to and I’m like wtf is wrong wit you. Lets just take it and tell them to go fuck themselves. She doesn't see things the same way you or me do. She sort of strange like that, she does have a bi-polar disorder, where she's up and down, and doesn't know what she wants. Anyways so now it's like 8:30am I go in other room start collecting my stuff that was left there games, w/e anyways I go back to her room I'm like I’m taking your stuff, your not coming back here as simple as that. I said “you don't even know these people”... I do, lets go, the guy in other room says I don't want to hear what's going on between you and her, or Jamie and her à just get the fuck out, I’m like fine I’m gone tell Jamie to stay the fuck away from us, peace. Anyways so I grab Heather and told her lets get out of here now, and she finally clicks in, fine…okay. So she gets on her shoes I gather all her stuff and we leave together... Making sure we got everything, we go outside, she gets on her bike, and then starts taking off down the hill. I ask her your going to work now she must have gone 30min early… so I said fine w/e… we will talk later… I love you, and I tried to kiss her on the lips and she turns and I’m like wtf. Then I tried again and she does it the other way, I’m like wtf again, and then she does a little peck and I said okay well I’ll see ya later. 12 o’clock comes - I pick her up, and bring her home, I give her some chips, and pop, and she's still hungry eats a sandwich anyways it's like 12:30 now and she's done, she still doesn't want to talk about our relationship, I'm like you don't think there's anything to spare in our relationship she's like "NO", I'm like nothing at all, she's like "NO", I'm like do you love me at all, she's like "NO", We’ve been like dating 2 1/2 yrs and your going to throw it away for these dipshits, with no life, no money, no friends, and just used you (took advantage of you) to get what they wanted (I know they wanted to fuck someone cause they where talking about how they wanted to import some girls to get laid and blah blah blah, anyways I was also informed by one of my friends that Jamie also was also putting the moves on a Joe’s girlfriend so Heather obviously is not the first, Joe was suppose to go up north, for a few days, but he stayed, and Jamie didn't know and ended up going over to her house and said honey I’m home or something. And Joe looked at him like wtf, and Joe said you should seen the look on his face, look like he shit his pants Jamie says oh I just wanted to see if you wanted to smoke a joint like as if, what a fucking faggit… grrrrrrrr I feel like going to his house and beating the shit out of each and everyone of them there Cory, & Jamie. Anyways I knew he was trying to get in my girlfriends pants --- I was trying to protect her, and prevent it from happening but she just wouldn't listen to me. Another reason I knew he was trying to fuck my girlfriend is because this guy was fucking my dad's girlfriend when I was 13 years old. Anyhow... she still doesn’t care about anything I’m saying and I told her to stay away from Jamie and him to stay the fuck away from me and her or I’ll kick the shit out of him. She's like crying because she wants to keep seeing this fucking prick, she just doesn't get it the whole story. So she goes back to work, I'm like so sick to my gut, I can't fucking believe after 2 1/2 yrs she doesn't even want to talk or look at me. I was like puzzled, like we've fucked everyday for like the last 2 1/2 yrs, now if that doesn't mean something wtf. Anyways so she finally gets off work I pick her up, we go to her parents house for supper, I still wasn't hungry but she ate, I told her I still need to talk and I still love her, anyways we go to my house... I sit her down on bed, I'm like look we need to talk she doesn't want to talk I showed her the emails I sent to Jamie, I told her I don't want her around Jamie or I’d call the cops, I told her look if I see Jamie again I'm beat the shit out of him... She's like all crying and stuff and I couldn't figure out why, then she says I just need some time alone can you please go away... So I left, I went upstairs, next thing I know she's typing away on keyboard trying to email the bastard, and I'm like oh no you aren't wtf. And I’m like what is wrong with you, stay away from this guy he's a stranger you don't even know him. He used you, and doesn’t give a fuck about you, (which is true). Why do you think I’m being so protective of you from him. Anyways she seems to have understood, and just playing a game next thing you know I’m upstairs for maybe 5min I try to phone a friend next thing you know guess who's she's talking to the fucker that lied to my face, and fucked my girlfriend behind my back (Jamie). I'm like you piece of shit, I'm like… yes I did fuck her in your bed, and he seems to be disgusted at Heather about it, and that's the point, I want him to stay the fuck away from her and her to do likewise, anyways he hangs up, she hangs up, I call him again you mutherfucking piece of shit, your a fucking liar and your a bitch... and click again I'm like good maybe he finally figures out I mean business. I did send him a couple emails. Anyways she's crying that he doesn't know the truth about her not fucking in his bed and that she doesn't want that mutherfucker to think of her like that, she's fucking trying to apologize for fucking in his bed, now WTF IS THAT PEOPLE, she didn't apologize to me for fucking him in his bed... WTF is that gawd, damn peoples I said WTF x 10 in row yesterday too her I was like WHAT THE FUCK!!!

[gijoe78]

what in Gods name is wrong with you? You would try and do horrible things to yourself over a fucking bitch? DUDE! We have all been screwed by various people in our lives, but its no reason to die. I found out I was a rebound reject after two months of what I thought was pure happiness. I slashed her tires and posted nasty messages all over the net with her name attached.

Revenge is the best answer. And maybe some psychological help in your case...

[ron]

Which part of "fuck her, move on" did you not understand? Walk away.

[King Goldfish]

I dont want to be apart of his Suicide for saying this but Im starting to think this is a Joke and just someone making random shit up to watch us all react.

if it is serious stop telling us about it. We all have our own fucking problems to deal with. You need to go see your family doctor about getting medicated for this and to see a shrink, or go to Yoga Class or go pray to God for help.


This isnt a place to get serious advice from. This is a place for people to rant their issues of society. I dont want to add your problems to my list.


GET HELP!

[gijoe78]

I dont want to be apart of his Suicide for saying this but Im starting to think this is a Joke and just someone making random shit up to watch us all react.

if it is serious stop telling us about it. We all have our own fucking problems to deal with. You need to go see your family doctor about getting medicated for this and to see a shrink, or go to Yoga Class or go pray to God for help.


This isnt a place to get serious advice from. This is a place for people to rant their issues of society. I dont want to add your problems to my list.


GET HELP!

This is a place for ranting, no one in here is a doctor or has the brains to give real advice...

[dew_hopper]

Fuck just get it over with and stop posting page sizeded responses my god, get a therapist or something. Everyoners got problems, stop whining

[VelvetAcid]

You're an idiot. Read this, www.diemehrheit.com under "rants". :sad: :sad: :sad: :sad: :sad:
fucking emo kids.

[Deez Nutz]

My gf been fucking behind my back with like 10 other guys, and i'm so disgusted I can't sleep, eat, do anything, I can't focus, or breathe, can't concentrate on anything other than all the sick shit she done behind my back... I'm like puking my guts out, and I slit my throat to the point where another cm i could have been in critical condition, got 7 stiches... I know all my friends and family are behind me to protect that I don't do again, but she won't even speak to me about what she's done, and been staying over at one of the guys houses... I don't know what to do, I really don't feel like living anymore. I have lost everything that ever mattered to me. :( without her I feel like there's nothing to live for... I don't care if I have 40k worth of equipment, 10k banked or I have my own buisness and do construction work for extra cash $$$. All that shit means nothing to me, I really want her back but she's like broke up with me to fuck him and she won't even face me what do I do?
Dude, that really sucks. I'd beat her ass, wether she's a girl or not. I can imagine how you feel...

[Grade A Haze]

Did anyone actually read his two huge posts of his story?

[_Kitana_]

Did anyone actually read his two huge posts of his story?


it failed to keep my intrest

[Rush~]

Kitana =(

You make several posts like that.
Don't be gay.

[Banninator]

i think you need to let her go man, i think she used you for your money and when she got what she wanted she left and dident tell you
as for cutting your throat your fucking dumbdont do that shit over a whore, do it over the fact that you crashed daddys jag x9

LMAO you are fucking dumb, i would just go get another gf. :bomb:

[6canadian9]

Now at this time I finally pulled her away from the phones, and all the computers and got her to come to the room we need to talk, you got to stop trying to apologize to this lil-bitch, he's a bad guy... personally all this guy did during the 3 weeks is get her drunk, stoned, and manipulate our relationship to break us up, and fuck her behind my back, when she was most vulnerable, she's not very strong - that's why I’m here for her, cause I love her and I couldn't stand to see her be used and hurt like this, that's why I almost committed suicide... That's also why I told her to stay the fuck away from him and I’d kick the shit out of him if he even came within 10 feet of her. Anyways in the end she finally realized why I’ve been so controlling, and trying to stop her from doing all those stupid things with them, she know see's that all I was really doing was protecting her, and willing to give my own life to do so. I couldn't stand to see her this way, now she loves me and we fucked, and it was all good, and she's happy now, she actually wanted me to go up there and beat the shit out of them till they were all in the hospital now that she understands everything that happened. I would, based on all the rage and anger that's inside of me because of all the lies, the manipulating of the relationship, the fucking my girlfriend and all that other shit... but you know what, in the end it's just isn't worth it, I don't want to go to jail, I run my own company, and I have my construction job too... So I got too many things to live for, know she's snapped out of whatever state of mind she was in and realizes that she really does love me, and she really does want to be with me, and we even slept together last night. You see love prevails once again, however I forgave her for everything that has happened because she was just blind sided, she forgot who her true love is, and was more interested in having fun, and trying something new, that she got caught up in all there bullshit, that they mad me look like the bad guy, but then she actually thought about it (I’ve been here, since the beginning, I've never cheated on her, and she's been fucked by like 2 other guys before) 1. The trip to nelson that I paid for, 2. my 1/2 brother when I was at work, and 3 . now this fucking asshole that took advantage of her... I feel like leaving her though because she still wants to be apart, it should be Strike 1, Strike 2, and Strike 3… Goodbye Heather. Not to mention everything else all the things behind my back, running away, hiding out, and just things that hurt me. I'm just glad to be back together, I enjoy kissing, and hugging her, and making sure she's alright, I will always love her no matter what happens... She can hurt me millions of more times, and I’ll still be here for her. Well here’s after yesterday, and she doesn’t want to talk to me again, lol she even got her mom to kick me out. Sigh I don’t know I’m so confused and lost what do I do people? You all say get over her, well can’t any of you give me some other alternative… Well have a nice day people... And fuck i'm not tring to rant but heh I want your opinions, and besides.

"WTF!? The Place To Rant, Rave, and plain ol' smell bad!" <---wtf.com title at top of screen so stop fucking bitching that I'm raving dumbasses.

[Grade A Haze]

You're not ranting.

You're writing fuckin novels...

[Broken]

You're not ranting.

You're writing fuckin novels...
Fucking Ranting Novelists these days.

[Orangellama]

Wow, what a retarded story. People like you are better off dead, you stupid bastard.

[_Kitana_]

Wow, what a retarded story. People like you are better off dead, you stupid bastard.

and you read it all

[YUCK FOU!!!]

:cool: and you read it all
no i read the first paragraph and the last line lol did he get her back??

[King Goldfish]

LOCK IT KATINA!


lets have a vote shall weeeeeee? :mfinger: :mfinger: :mfinger:

[_Kitana_]

Alright...

King got the first vote...

2 more...

and I will shut her down lol

[King Goldfish]

Hehe i spelled yer name wrong.. AGAIN

:tongue:

[kurtc0bainrox]

erm. ok I just read the post up their and had to edit this

[Orangellama]

and you read it all

meh i was bored :rolleyes:

[_Kitana_]

Hehe i spelled yer name wrong.. AGAIN

:tongue:

You ass....

Just call me Kit

[kael]

My gf been fucking behind my back with like 10 other guys, and i'm so disgusted I can't sleep, eat, do anything, I can't focus, or breathe, can't concentrate on anything other than all the sick shit she done behind my back... I'm like puking my guts out, and I slit my throat to the point where another cm i could have been in critical condition, got 7 stiches... I know all my friends and family are behind me to protect that I don't do again, but she won't even speak to me about what she's done, and been staying over at one of the guys houses... I don't know what to do, I really don't feel like living anymore. I have lost everything that ever mattered to me. :( without her I feel like there's nothing to live for... I don't care if I have 40k worth of equipment, 10k banked or I have my own buisness and do construction work for extra cash $$$. All that shit means nothing to me, I really want her back but she's like broke up with me to fuck him and she won't even face me what do I do?
Hey dude, I know how you feel. Lately I've been having problems like you, and I feel like I can't trust my boyfriend. I know it really sucks when you find out they've been cheating on you, but its not worth dying for it.

Here's how I see it:

If the relationship didn't work out, fuck it and move on. She obviously isn't the right person for you. I know you'll probably disagree w/ that, but give it a little thought.

[6canadian9]

Well I wish there's a girl that loves me, as much as I would love her. And wouldn't mind helping out once in awhile, cooking, cleaning, running the company, helping make it successful, and is really trustworthy (after this relationship, i'm going to find it impossible to trust someone) She'd have to tell me: where she's going, what she's doing, ... I don't even want to think about it, I think i'm going to act like a jealous, stuck-up, very nosy lil bastard... I just feel that I can't trust anyone anymore, friends, girlfriends, people in general. Well thank-you Kael, you seem to be the only nice person on this site, with some intellgence and is not just cutting me down or saying I'M FUCKING DUMB... Anyways like I said "it was, a mistake", and "I still love her with all my heart."

So to all you assholes out there, fuck you. :mfinger: :mfinger: :mfinger:

[_Kitana_]

gah

you are fucking stupid

[Lesli]

I think that what a lot of people don't understand is that when you love someone like that...it really is hard to let them go and it really is hard to believe that you could be whole without them. It was a mistake dude...but trust me when I say it probably wont be the last. The first time I cheated on my boyfriend it was a huge mistake, one I vowed I'd never make again. Just recently it did happen again and its unexplainable. You can't say that you just stop loving a person and it really does kind of irk me that some people can't try to understand how you feel. But you can live without her. Don't try to pull some crazy stunt again. You just need someone to show you that you can be loved again. Someone needs to show you that you deserve better...and make you realize that there is better, as hard as it may be for you to admit it right now. Just hang in there dude.

[6canadian9]

Man I can't do this no more, she obviously doesn't want anything to do with me ---> again, (SIGH)... I don't know what the fuck, I hope all women aren't like this, I really do hope - I find one to take care of me soon, because at this rate I won't be able to open my eyez again. Everything is so blurry and dissy... I feel like lying down and dying, but when I get there I can only think of her, and then I have problems breathing, concentrating, and sleeping... Someone come to FSJames and look over me, be my guardian angel... I can't go through this alone, and there's only so much your friends and family can do. What I need is another girl to tell me everything will be alright and that they will look after me. I'm scared - I'll be alone forever :( and :'( I can't stand that thought. I hate being alone... FucK so depressed...

[ash_361]

Okay. First of all, move the fuck out of Fort St. James. That one-horse town could kill anybody just because they're bored. Move down to the coast to Vancouver, or better yet, the Island and Victoria. These cities are crawling with hot, available women just for you.



First of all, I live in Victoria (Oak bay) and its boring here 2 :P. Second of all, dude i know how u feel man, I've been used and shit by girls and Ive even attempted suicide, but in the end its not worth it. She doesn't deserve you if you still wanna be with her after all that she did.

[DeuceDealer]

Hey, Canadian guy--your girlfriend doesn't sound manic-depressive, she sounds like she has borderline personality disorder! And, doesn't Canada have a socialized health care system??? Take advantage of it, man!!! See a doc, seriously. Meds probably are not in the cards for you, as you do not seem to have a history of depression from what I have read, but you are simply having a serious reaction to an unfortunate turn of events similar to that which we all must face at some point in our lives. Love--nonlove
BTW, your neck was a good choice to cut for suicide. *YAY* :sword:

[ash_361]

so why do u love her again? cause she cheated on u and did all this shit?

[6canadian9]

Too hard to explain, I just feel that I need her close by my side or i'm lost... She makes me feel complete, even if she doesn't love me. Doesn't change a thing - I love her with all my heart, and well explain what love is? All I can say is I miss her, and want to be with her.

[magnolia]

here here! That's really good adivice!

[magnolia]

First of all, I live in Victoria (Oak bay) and its boring here 2 :P. Second of all, dude i know how u feel man, I've been used and shit by girls and Ive even attempted suicide, but in the end its not worth it. She doesn't deserve you if you still wanna be with her after all that she did.
here here! That's really good adivice!

[magnolia]

Too hard to explain, I just feel that I need her close by my side or i'm lost... She makes me feel complete, even if she doesn't love me. Doesn't change a thing - I love her with all my heart, and well explain what love is? All I can say is I miss her, and want to be with her.
that's no reason to take your life, just imagine how horribly she'd feel if you did that. And think about your family and other friends and how much they'd miss YOU.

[ash_361]

that's no reason to take your life, just imagine how horribly she'd feel if you did that. And think about your family and other friends and how much they'd miss YOU.

also good advice!

[nope122]

u should have done it :gun:

[6canadian9]

See this shit (these are the letters i've sent her in the last week or so) not even all of them either, look i'm fucking nuts over her, always have been. I seriously am not crazy but I am over over her. I graduated with honors, I educated in being a business man/technician, I do construction full-time for good pay... And well fuck I don't care about any of that. It's all crap as far as I'm concerned, the one thing that matters to me, is the one thing that I can't have. (HER)


Sorry to hear, what they want, as I've said we've experienced alot of things since we've been together both, good and bad.... Life is all about the lessons you learn, and the steps you take after that to pursue happiness, and make things right again. I wish things didn't have to be so hard, and I wish your parents understood what me and you have both gone through. Anyways I think that's dumb to tell you to stay away from each other for a month, this is exactly like before, there controlling every single little thing you do, all I did was tried to prevent you from doing anything bad, I didn't say you couldn't see him or her, just I had a gut feeling about these guys after the first week, because you kept wanting to go see what jamie's doing and you wouldn't even talk to me for 5min or sit down and watch a tv show without bitching that you wanted to get drunk or stoned, and hang out with them. Anyways fuck... I love you so much, and people are always standing in our fucking way, but I guess I brought it apon myself by getting your parents involved, but as you can see I was scared, worried, and almost commited suicide so I guess there's not much else too do, but to live with the actions we have taken, if only I could have handled it better, and you realized sooner, you could still be living here right now and we could be happy... as we always been since moving from home, no lawmor, no dishes, no bullshit... and like all this :'( I love you, and i'm sorry for everything that's happen, oh well anyways i'm always here for you.!!!

Okay lets just say, that I did cut my throat open as a desperate attempt to keep you in my life... Who was the one getting abused in this relationship (I WAS), who was the victim in this relationship (I WAS), who was the one that poured out his heart, and stood behind every dumb, fucked up thing that ever happened (I WAS)... I got cheated on, lied to, stepped on over and over again, left out, pushed aside, fucked over, and emotionally put through hell and back. So for me to want to still be with you is either: true love, very obessed and protective, very naive/stupid for thinking a girl like you could ever love a guy like me, or I'm first time (first real girl relationship) whipped = Heather Whipped... (meaning the reason I am so wrapped around your finger is because I feel I can't get another one, or do better than you... So I'm stuck in this state of mind, that your good enough for me, and that your everything I want and nothing else matters.) or maybe if you think about it, it's a combination of all them things, but personally... don't tell me that I was controlling you, because personally that's bullshit, all I ever did was look after you, and tried to prevent bad things happening to you, so that you where happy, because if you where happy ---> I was happy. Anyhow I hope you understand, and as for your parents the reason they say what they do: is because they are not you, they don't see everything that happened, there sort of blind (like you where) like that, and when you try to tell them the truth, they say they don't want to know those things, and your in control of your own life, and blah blah blah... So if they really think i'm going to stand on the side lines and say to hell with you and push you outta my life, it just won't happen because I spent 2 1/2 yrs loving you and I will never stop no matter what. Oh they can say what they will but if there gona continue this shrade and try to make me look like the bad guy, with problems, and is fucked in the head, I won't stand for it... I won't stop until every person in fort st. james, knows the entire truth, and then they will finally figure out for themselves once and for all.

Hey baby, I found the back up disc of all the good pictures of me, I'm sorry when I ripped off all the pictures of me on the wall... I threw them away and ripped them up because that was the time you said: "you didn't love me" and "didn't care about me", and "you didn't even want to look at me". So I got all mad and tore them up... please don't be mad, you know I love you with all my heart, and I got the scar to prove it. Seriously when you say things like that, it does hurt me inside, because you and I both know - that I am very sensitive... maybe a little too sensitive, but anyways... here you are. You can save these pictures on your computer and then you can look at me whenever you want. :P I do the same to you, except for instead of lookng at porno and jerking it, I'm looking at my baby, and jerking it :P (yes that means you) :D well anyways. You make me so horny baby (lol hmmm sounded like austin powers), meh i'm am a little stoned and playing with myself. Well I'll save some of this bud for you... cause this some good shit. I LOVE YOU... Nighty Nighty, sweety pie. Meh I tried to attach them but only got 3 and there's like 17 so how about i just burn you a cd. Sound good too you? or you think it's a waste of a cd to put me on there? Ya ya I know you love me, so i'll burn the cd just for you darling. Oh and please don't say your Heather the heartbreaker, because yes you did break my heart more times than you'll ever know, but I don't want to focus on the bad things of our relationship, I want to concentrate on the good things and try to picture you as my angel, I have never really told people otherwise, I guess some people know what you did to me, but most of the time I make up lies to make you look like a goddess, and personally you are to me... I'd die over and over and over again for you, lots of people say that's because your my first, but I say naw it's, because I feel completed with you, you fill that gap in my heart, you made me see the light (and dark) but point is I love you, always will, and I will never stop making mad love too you.

I figured you needed it... I just bought some deadly AAA bud, this shit is wicked 90% better than jamies shit, much better than that shit your smoking, but it's just one compacted bud, enough for 4 joints costed 20 bucks, so heh I got it and I'm glad to see that we will be alirhgt, and I understand now that you need space, I just got scared when I tried to take you home and talk to you, then you ran off to the kitchen whispered some shit to your mother then she acts like a ref and tells me I should go home, when she's the one always bitching about how she doesn't control you and you can do what you want, but it was actually you that wanted me too go... Which really fucked with my head. I guess when you say you fucked me over, you more like fucked with my head. But you know what baby... I will always love you, and I know you didn't purposely try to fuck with my head, that's what bi-polar means up and down, in and out, you never know what you want or like you said you didn't love me and then I knew you do love me... Your just haveing a hard time, and i'm sorry that jamie fucked with your head, he did with mine too you know, that probably hurt me worse than you. Actually the guy that sold me the bud was joe, and he said ya that fucking lil prick tried to fuck kritstie and he almost dropped him, but jamie ran home like a little girl and said if he touches him he'll call the cops, me and him where laughing our fucking ass off... what a little bitch lmfao... Anyways girl take care, and I will always be here if you need me :P. Sleep well honey. Sincerely RwB.

Well gawd, I'm so confused man, I don't know what the fuck to do... of course your mother wants us to break up, because she's knows i don't give a fuck about her, I don't care what she has to say, as far as i'm concerened she's a dumb bitch, as for your dad that's a different story I love him... and I love you so much i couldn't bare the thought without you, ya I miss you and of course we can be fuck friends, friends, best fiends... well I know you've broke my heart and i guess I did get fucked around but, I still love you, and nothing you can do to change that I will always love you. Your still my girl and you always will be. Your mom try's to act like she cares, and you just told me she wanted us to break up, and not to see me anymore, that's fucking sick man. Why does everyone try to fuck me around. Anyways she said that I can talk to you, when your good and ready. I said fine, but you seem to be ready now, only she's not giving you the chance. Well as i've said so many times, i will always be here for you, like i have always been, and always will be, I love you, and I will miss you, but we still can have fun in da bed anytime :) well peace baby. And cheer up...

Stories going around town that you where sexually abused when you were a little girl. That's why your so fucked in the head! (My thoughts is: it's probably true, why else for your behaviour, and everything else you've done)... and I dont' know what, you want. So apparently people say that you fucked more than 3 guys behind my back - other than "warren, alex, jamie." I heard you even fucked my dad (I don't doubt it), and a couple others (probably)... I can't believe this: but it's fucking tearing me up inside, that you could do this to me. I've probably been, the only one that's ever actually loved you or tried to love you and take care of you. So anyways whatever man, do whatever the fuck you want. You have only degraded yourself, and ruined what could of been the best part of your life (* M E *). Come September, I'm moving... and i'll be back next year to finish working for Dave and buy his car, then i'm going to travelling around Canada. I wish things were different, I wish you where a kind, sweet, and gentle girl - when I dated you, maybe I wouldn't have turned into this beast I am now. All I tried to do, was to make you a better person to yourself and I. But heh it's alright I'm starting to realise, how dumb and fucking retarted you really are, you going to end up with some disease and end up a whore. I guess it's best if we stay away because I don't really care anymore, you broke my heart and fucked me over. But you know what? You should really consider yourself lucky to have ever been with a guy like me, most women are looking for a man like me... one as caring and loving as I am. As you know I am a sensetive and very loving man... but you know what baby, it's your lost. You only made me realise that! Goodbye Heather.

Why wouldn't you just wake up and talk to me, your mom answers the door again, and I'm like I need to talk to Heather, and she's like "NO" she's sleeping, but I need to talk to Heather, and she's like NO I'm going to call police... I'm like fine but doesn't change a thing, I'm still going to see Heather, I'm still going to talk to her, and I still love her. So then I just left and here I am... God fuckingggggggggg why me... See this is why I want to kill myself for you, because everyone hates me and the one person I wanted to love and love me... Is not giving a fuck about me. (YOU) So I just want to die, here I'm writing you a will. So that you can have all my stuff, all my money, everything. I love you babe, but without you i can't go on... I'm afraid of being alone, I fear it worse than life itself, I just can't fucking believe after all the shit you put me through, I'm getting treated like this... I'm not even a bad guy, I was like your angel if you never figured it out. I loved you more than I loved myself, I loved you more than I could ever possible love someome. I just can't believe that now that your done with me, everyone else is trying to hurt me too... Jamie "I got what I wanted... haha", Greg "she's done more to you than you'll ever know, I know stuff that would just make you go off the deep end again", Your mom "No, You can't see her/She's sleeping, if you come here again... I'll call the cops", .................. why baby, see this is why I feel like fucking shit, because the one person that should stand up for me, protect me, hold me and love me ... is you. That's why I need to talk to you... i have to make you understand that I can't go through this alone anymore. I'm sorry for anything i've ever done, but please don't run away from me, or play keep away... I'm going through hard time as it is, I really need to be with you... please be there for me, as i've always been here from you. Look at it the other way if I did all that stuff too you behind your back would you still want to be with me? No because you don't want to be with me now, and I've done nothing wrong. So please baby, don't leave me for nothing, I need you more than ever... I swear on my life, that I never meant to hurt you... I only want to be with you and love you. I'll do anything it takes to be with you. I MISS YOU

I hereby declare: Heather R. T***** (my love), to receive all of my possessions (Car/Home Stereo System, Computer Equipment, Everything else), and money (Owe’d by several people total sum: 10,000)… for sole purpose that she was the only one that cared for me. I came in this world alone, I will leave it with the thoughts of her always. She has touched my heart in more ways than can ever be explained, and I love her more than any of you will ever know, and I hope one day she understands this was the best way for me. Love Robert W. Black.

[6canadian9]

that's no reason to take your life, just imagine how horribly she'd feel if you did that. And think about your family and other friends and how much they'd miss YOU.

I don't think she'd have a care in the world, if I'd die, because she didn't even seem to care I was in hospital, 3min after taking me there... she ran up to that guys house, to get fucked, and then when I got out she didn't even talk to me... Did you guys even read the story... She doesn't give a fuck about me, but I love her and that's the way it always was. And I'm going crazy. The only way I'd get over her - is A. I find someone that's beautiful, but gentle and kind heartedl, B. Someone directs me in a movie, makes a show, or w/e C. I take a trip somewhere, I don't even know where to:because the furthest i've been from this town is Vancouver, and in the last 3yrs... Prince George (so...) D. I find someone that wants to be my teacher in the use of weapons and tactics, or something fun. or E. I end up dead or something, because my heart is shattered to point where I feel dead inside. (I don't know about you, but maybe the people that became psycho's did it because they lost what they loved. or was Hitler, Helter Skelter, and Chain Saw Massacre guy always like that???) Meh I don't like to fight or hurt people, I'm quite the opposite, the only person I could hurt is myself. All i've had in me was love, and now I have so much of it it's killing me inside out.

[MrNewbie]

Please kill yourself for making those long messages.:drunk:


Eh lad juzz kiddin aiight u little fucker. Its gay to take ur life, if you gonna take sucicide just go into a market or something and shot 30 pep in the head and then kill yourself.

[King Goldfish]

Come on Kitana stop torching us with this.

[Banninator]

and you read it all


lmao, it failed to keep my interest as well.

[Bitch]

Too hard to explain, I just feel that I need her close by my side or i'm lost... She makes me feel complete, even if she doesn't love me. Doesn't change a thing - I love her with all my heart, and well explain what love is? All I can say is I miss her, and want to be with her.

It's not her that you feel complete with. It's the thought of what she represents that you want. Everyone wants to be loved and the less love you get the more you want. It's not healthy for you to go after something that will only hurt you. It's like that's just what you want something you can't get but meanwhile you'll bear the pain. She's not worth it! She's hurt you numerous times already. It's true she may not know what she wants but it's obvious that she's not going to just decide she'll cool her cheating ways and just be with you. Love and cheating are like addictions. she most likely won't be able to stop what she does if it's forfilling something she desires. She's not happy either and apparently feels this is the best way to get love is by getting screwed by every man she meets. You may be the best choice for her but she's certainly not the best for you. You need to find someone that can return your feelings of love and attention. Not some one that disrespects you and makes you miserable. NO ONE is worth your life!

I've broken up with my first and I thought only. I cried for months. I felt miserable and useless. but as time wore on I eventually realized there are more out there. There are plenty of peopel out there willing to love me. It happened once, it'll happen again...I found love again! I learned from my mistakes and found I could find somone that would treat me better. I broke up again..something wasn't completely right, but now I'm experienced with love and I knew more of what I wanted. I found love again! and now we are 9 years strong and getting married.

You have to be patient and let it happen. She's already told you she doesn't want to be with you, so you need to find someone that does want you and only you! Be patient and you'll find it!

[6canadian9]

Omg they called the cops and laid assault charges against me for that smack I gave to her, but in my defense I gave him a list of names and numbers that have literally watched her, kick, beat, and almost break my leg. So when the court trail comes up I think it'll be thrown right out, however, they took my prints, made me sit in a jail cell, and got a cop to escort me with handcuffs to the jail. That's just not right, she should at least get that too. Like I have been the one abused throughout this relationship, I told the cops of the 6-9 times she's kicked me in the ballz, punched me in the face, kicked me in the leg for no reason when sitting down, and literally punched me all over the chest and arms just cause she felt like it. Now god they laying charges against me because I smacked her once, and I have to stay away from her, no emails, no phone calls, no communication of any kind like through a friend or whatever... Man this is fucking bullshit, all I wanted to do was to talk to her, and love her. God man I've put up with everything she's done in the last 2 1/2 yrs + the last month... and this is what I get, heh goes to show, what happens when your madly in love with someone. Oh well guess I'll get over her and move on, but fuck I just want to see her so bad... Anyways throughout this week i couldn't breath, sleep, or eat... she was parting and having fun, and fucking a guy named Joe, lol this girls just a slut, free pussy come and get it...... Grrrr I'm just stop talking about this stupid bitch, cause it's really driving me insane. Life is all about the lessons you learn. I hope that others out there will be alright, because I think I will now, I feel I don't want anything to do with her ever again. About fucking time... that's what all you, friends, and family can say... Anyways thank-you peoples, for your comments, replys, and help. I appreciate it. Sincerey RwB.

[get it together]

that sucks... good luck with the trial... and Its good to hear that your over that bitch, I remember reading your post when it first came up and what you went through really sucks... but you shouldn't let it get too you and Its good that your over her now, find another girl I'm sure there is a girl out there who will treat you better for who you are and not your wallet

but if you want someone to take that 10 000 off of you... I know someone who could use it :)

[dustinzgirl]

Ok like i read this whole thing cuz i was really bored. you need to find something to do. mabye she is really not wanting to be with you. you cant force or discuss someone into loving you. give it up. find a nice girl. one common denominator in you story is drugs...find someone that does not have a drug problem. dont find any girl. whatever. the point being, your whole story you are trying to rescue her because she is bipolar and you love her. mabye she doesnt fucking wantto be rescued. mabye you should be smarter than her and not play into her bs. get a fucking hobby or something.

[_Kitana_]

*SMACKS HEAD AGAINST KEYBOARD*

I can not take it no more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



GET OVER HER, MOVE ON, STAY AWAY FROM THE PHYSCHO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!